So this is kinda part two to my ♀ or ♂?? post. A lot has happened.
Too anyone that doesn’t know, keeping it short, I like a girl. She’s different to the type of person I would normally make friends with, so at first I thought. “Maybe this is just a new friend thing. I enjoy spending time with her”, I recon this is my first “crush” so I have absolutely no experience whatsoever. I knew something was different but I wasn’t sure what I wanted.
Did I want her to be my friend? Best friend? Or girlfriend? I wasn’t sure.
Its been a month now and we’ve got a lot closer. I don’t know if this is love or just a crush thing but the more time we spend together the more I like about her. Her sense of humour, when she calls me “awkward” and when she smiles like a child about to do something they know is wrong.
We sit next to each other in one class and I was expressing my hatred of the Geography and she suggested we bunked off together. I’ve bunked off before but I’ve tried to stop before anyone gets suspicious. I’m glad I went with her.
We messed around and hid from teachers, took pictures of each other looking shifty and contemplated what we should do. We talked. I love how she’s notices things about me, like who I’m comfortable with and my reaction to getting picked on in class.
I find her cute and she’s not the typical blond, tanned type meaning I don’t just like her for her looks!!
I can’t stop thinking about her
I have the most fun when I’m with her
I care more about what she thinks about me then I have for anyone else
I overanalyse everything she says
I can’t stop smiling right now
What do I do now? I’ve liked her for years but only got to know her recently. My first goal was to be friends then see what happens….
If I tell her I like her then what if she doesn’t like me back?! I don’t want to ruin out friendship, I’d prefer friends then nothing.
She is all I ever think about, this is something different. I know it.
She might not even be gay. Do feelings like this pass???